May 31, 2010

Been Doing Other Things...

...keep forgetting to blog....
Went out to JP's parents place today so she could do some laundry. While it was going we went to a local cemetery, since it's Memorial Day, and explored. Took a few pictures too.
Would have taken more, but my damned batteries aren't holding much of a charge these days. I charge them and within hours they are dead. Either they are just old and not holding a charge anymore (very likely) or after charging them on a higher voltage in Australia for a year they just are not fit for use here anymore (maybe?). Going to have to get a new set, at least they aren't super expensive.
I also had one of the best strawberry shakes today that I've ever had. Not some super blended Dairy Queen stuff...no way...this is the good stuff.... super thick, mass chucks of strawberries.... YUM!

Now I'm off to write my mom a letter to go in her super late mother's day card. Sort of been putting it off.... I'm going to type a letter and print it, because I type faster than I write and it will help me get it done ;)

-M

May 29, 2010

Been A Little Preoccupied...

With some things at the moment...but I'll get to some blogs over the course of the weekend :)

-M

May 24, 2010

Joanna you can cook this....

A good healthy low carb option for a meal.... cook up a boneless skinless chicken breast in a bit of olive oil, black pepper and garlic powder and before it's done throw some frozen stirfry veggies in for a few mins. Turns out so yummy :)

Getting used to new glasses and weight going well.

^ the best I could do with photoshop to show what my sight is like with and without my glasses. Pretty scary hey??

I'm getting used to my new glasses and I love how well I can see. I don't feel sick anymore looking through them which is good... the first day was a crazy time trying to walk and do my job at work, but now it's much better. My eyes still get a little odd with focusing but I think they are close to being adjusted to these ones. More than anything it's reminding myself that I do not need to squint anymore. I'm not used to that yet.

The weight thing is going well. I've lost a few pounds all ready. Having this job helps a lot and so does not going bonkers eating junk food. Feeling very very positive about it. We got a scale today and measure tape so now I can definitely keep better track. Jess bought a yoga dvd that's 30 mins, so we will do that most days and I want to do like 40 mins of speed walking on days that I don't work, just to make sure I'm doing enough every day. I have very big goals on what I'd like to weigh, so no messing around ;) I am going to allow myself one day each week that I can have a few drinks or eat something off the normal routine, just so it's not too difficult.

Talked to Dad & Grandma on the phone yesturday...was wonderful to hear their voices again. They said in the fall they may all come out for a couple days for a visit...that would be wonderful as I miss everyone so so much ♥♥♥ Now I just need to get that brother of mine down here...but he works so much, I don't know if that will be possible. We'll see. And hopefully I can see Aunt Kris before summer is over :D

Now it's time to get ready and get to work....blah! :P

-M

May 22, 2010

They Are In!

Since JP's phone has been acting up ever since she got it back and it won't let her check her voice mail, I thought I'd call the Walmart Vision place before I leave for work and see if my new glasses are in yet. They are there! :D I'm going to swing in on my way to punch in for work and get them. I'm not yet sure if I'll wear them at while doing our two trucks (boo!) though or not. I don't want to fall over or anything... So we'll see. After truck I will probably test them out though. I am going to see like 3X clearer than I do with these glasses I have on now...at LEAST! Oooh I'm stoked!!!

-M

PS: taking headache stuff with me just in case :P

Thanks ;)

I spent some time today chatting through Facebook with my Aunt from Kansas and it was nice to know that I'm definitely not the only one missing the weddings going on ... She pretty much told me to snap out of my gloominess today and I needed it. I'm thinking finding a part time job on top of this one really is a good idea. It will keep me busy and I can save money faster.

I also think a bit of my problem right now is I've spent over a year sharing living space with others after living 5 in my own place and I'm starting to get a bit grumpy over it. It doesn't have anything to do with anyone else, I think it's just that once you've had it.... you want to keep it, you know what I mean? There is nothing like coming home to your own space, walking around in your bra, cranking your tunes and cooking yourself a nice meal with a glass of wine (yes i like to cook in my bra while singing out of tune and drinking okay? lol)...after a hard day's work. I want that back....

Don't get me wrong, I've had friends in Australia and friends here that have been so amazing and gone so far above and beyond helping. I'm thinking I'll be grateful for the rest of my life for all the help I've gotten and places I've had to sleep and food I've had to eat and rides to work, etc. But I've been so ready to be on my own for a while now and I am finding out, that I don't have as much patience to let it happen as I thought I did. But I'm trying to be as patient as I can. I just need more money!

I went for a nice walk today too. I was pretty stoked when JP presented me with a key for the apartment last night....woot! I didn't want to go anywhere and leave the door unlocked for obvious reasons, but now I can just pick up and go :D

So in the next few days I'm going to start looking around and asking around and see if I can't find something to do for the AM hours of my day.

Aunt Kris has been pitching me the idea again of doing something with my photography. Like, making cards with the pictures and selling them, etc. It's not a bad idea. I have no idea how to go about it but it's not a bad idea.

I'm hoping JP got a look at some cameras today while in St. Joe, because I really want to go out photographing with her, even if we only get an hour at a time. I think it would be a creative thing we both can do that is outside, perfect for summer.

We had a really good conversation not that long ago about her being a physical therapist and me being an EMT and both of us doing something creatively with our talents on the side. She's an amazing painter and drawer and she does all sorts of neat things in art and I have my photography. I think both of us, as we have time, need to explore possible ways to bring in a bit of income and to have a hobby, by using what we are good at creatively. I'm sure the possibilities are probably endless.

Anyhow, I'm rambling. Have a few more things to do before I get ready for work. I did some nosing around at jobs available in the area as well as looking up specific things I need or need to do. I think I've narrowed down what kind of phone I want to get. I don't think I'll be doing a normal cell plan, because they are pricey. But I like AT&T so I think I might go with their pay as you go thing they do. You get calls, voice mail, texts and pictures (which probably only to me is important but it is!). The price is definately higher than Australia's Vodafone but it's cheaper than what I paid for my plan under Dad & Jacqi family set and I get unlimited minutes and texts including international, so it's not a bad deal. Still thinking on it...

I also looked up some stuff for getting a female medical check up and all that jazz.... it's been way past time for that, as much as I'm just raring to go...NOT. But it has to be done. They have something in town for lower income earners so I jotted down the info so I can give them a call on Monday and find out more information.

I also looked up the fees for getting my temps, as I want to get that started....lookout roadways!! :P

And I made a spreadsheet to keep track of how much my paychecks are every two weeks, then what I spend money on, so I know where it's went. I have many things I want to get in the next three months and also save money at the same time... won't be an easy task. So I thought it would be helpful to be able to see it all in front of me on one page - what I make, where it goes, what I've saved, what I still need to buy and save for, etc. Tracey would be so proud ;)

So that is all that. Oh and hey I'm still sticking to the low carb thing. I get just a bit more tired after work but during it I'm fine. I'm eating enough of everything healthy so it's fine. My jeans are just a tad looser so I am hoping that combined with the workout I get at work, might be doing exactly what I want. I don't have a scale yet so I'm relying on how my clothes feel. I might see if the dollar store or Walmart has a body tape measure at least, so I can keep track that way. I do know what my weight was right before I left Australia and I know I put on at least five pounds after being here a few weeks. So later on when I weight I'll have an idea anyhow ;)

Now, I'm gonna enjoy my coffee and my tunes and do a bit of my survey, before I go to work.

-M

Tracey.... here's two links for you...

My friend Tracey will be seeing EJ play in England soon and there's more details on the opening acts on this EJ blog, as well as some rumors about EJ and Billy Joel possibly hitting Australia: http://eltonjohnnews.blogspot.com/
She will be very excited about that! It's one thing about living in Australia, it's harder to see big name acts. Lucky her, she might see EJ twice within a years time - that would be awesome :)

-M

So Homesick I Could Cry

Part of it is probably because my cousin is getting married today and I know that most of my family is together in Illinois, but I'm super homesick today.... it's been almost 13 months now since I've seen any member of my family and I miss everyone like crazy :( I think on top of that, because JP has school and work, we haven't really gotten to do any of the stuff we were talking about doing like exploring the area and taking pictures and checking out shops, etc. I'm about bouncing off the walls needing things to do. So I think some of it is I'm just really really bored. On top of that... is the fact that this is a one bedroom apartment and I feel like I'm in the way and I don't want to be a bother or anything.

So, I'm starting to look online and see about maybe getting some part time work in the mornings to keep me busy. I can use all the money I can get anyhow, so as long as I can handle it, I'm going to see what I can do. I'd obviously like something physically easy because of how demanding my evening job is. I figured, if I can work at least part time in the mornings, I could put that money aside and not touch it for like two months...and maybe I can find a crappy little car! Then I'd have the freedom to just take off and go places, which I think is what I'm craving right now.... I spent so much time inside when in Australia because I didn't really have the means to get around as well as in Milwaukee (Sydney has a great transport system...but suburbs are another story though) so it was such a hassle to go places. Here... there's just no transport at all.

They've suggested me riding bike, which will be great when some of this weight is gone. But right now I'm putting my body through a lot with this job and don't want to over do it. Because I came here SO out of shape, it's very easy to pull something or get injured...which would then affect my ability to do my job and earn money. So I have to weight these things out. Unfortunately the busy/commerce part of town, is the other side. From here to Walmart is roughly twenty blocks (about six of those are double length blocks). By car it takes around 8 minutes to get there so walking would take...? An hour? Maybe 50 mins? So that's two hours just to get to that area and back, then what ever you want to do... *sigh* yeah I need a car!

And that is just in town... I want to go other places as well, like St. Joe and KC and go visit my Aunt in Kansas and eventually trek to Illinois and before the year is out, home.

I'm going to start asking at work as well, suggestions on other places to work for extra cash. There's a few I work with that have another part time job. I just want money, so I can drive and get a little studio apartment.

I think I'm just getting frustrated. I know I have to have patience, that things will come in stages. But I sort of want it all now....

-M

May 21, 2010

Finally Survey Is Complete!

And I'm gonna get hate remarks because it's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay longer than I'd planned! 439 questions..... cripes! Next year I'm making it like... 40 :P

Now I have to fill it out... :S

-M

Survey Says....

Since around 2003 or so I've been a member of a very select and small group of EJ fans. We pretty much defected from a very large EJ message board, mostly because our humor (silly, raunchy, sassy, etc.) didn't mix well with others there. So we started our own group on Yahoo, that then morphed into a website and a message board for a long time. And most of the core members are still together, though we lost a few along the way. Tracey, who I stayed with in Australia, is a member, as is Jess, who I'm with now, and Paul who is not far from here, and Diana, who's on the East Coast.
Anyhow, the point of this post lol, is that every year since at least 2005 ( i think? or maybe 2004?) I've made a member survey. The first year I put it together is was indeed to learn more basics about everyone but over the years it's morphed into an annual massive survey that takes like two hours to complete :P It's always a good read when we swap them and see what everyone wrote and we end up getting into some great conversations in chat over it.
This year, I've been slower in putting it together. In the past I was done with it in a few hours....but this year I'm struggling. I think a lot of it is just that I'm tired from the new job and my brain is still settling into my new location.
So today...I'm pumping up on coffee for the next four hours and see if I can get it finished!
-M

May 19, 2010

11 months smoke free and new glasses on the way.

Between having a Facebook conversation with a friend of mine and a comments conversation on Blogger with another, it made me realize that I'm coming up to a year without smoking. A year! I didn't think I'd actually be able to pull it off but I did. I've tried many times and failed miserably... not this time though!! :D And Joanna.......... YOU CAN DO IT ;) Just remember what I told you about having to be your own parent, can't let yourself have one, it's just too friggin' bad! You'll do great, I know it. ♥

I went to the eye doc yesterday to have an eye exam and to get new glasses ordered. The arm came off mine :( I wasn't sure what I was going to do because my next paycheck is still just over a week away but JP came to the rescue to help me out until payday. Thank you! If they were just for reading or something it wouldn't be so bad, but I have astigmatism and it's fairly severe and my vision tends to look fairly close to this without glasses:

For me it means: not being able to see close up, far away, in between and having lines curve a little to the left instead of things being straight up and down. It sucks badly with no glasses.... and it's been about six years since I've had a prescription change because I kept putting it off. I had no idea just how big of adjustment I'd need until we got the new prescription worked out. He showed me what it will be like seeing through the new ones and I was like.... WOW. The doc thinks my headaches are from eyestrain because I squint all the time now. Sometimes I don't even realize I am doing it...

I'm going to be sad that when the new ones arrive in a few days that it will pretty much be the end of my old pair. Both of the original arms have been replaced by other, less stable ones and the bridge in the front would probably snap at some point because it's starting to finally rust. But, I have to say...they were damned good glasses, the last I got on my dad's insurance. The fact that the frames were fine from 1998 until 2009 when the first arm pin snapped....says a lot about the craftsmanship, figuring I wore them every single day and they'd been rained on, dropped, slept on, banged up.... was well worth the money. I love the style though... and will miss them:

I had the last two days off and it was nice to sit around and relax some. I was very worn out and needed it. I work three and then have a day off, so it's not too bad at all. I decided to utilize this job and the exercise benefits of doing it.... I am pushing myself for three weeks (started yesturday) to go through phase 1 of the South Beach diet again. Yes to shed what hopefully will be at least a few pounds but to also jump start my metabolism as well. I used phase 1 a couple years ago when I worked in the lab and we did the biggest loser contest and not only did I win our little competition but I also dropped a cool 24 pounds. If I'd ate fairly healthy afterwards and had done at least something for exercise, I probably would have kept it off. But I foolishly went back to things like delivery Chinese, Pizza Hut and Saraphinos (italian) all the time and packed it back on fairly quickly. :(

So now, I am determined. I have the exercise in place, I just need to suck it up for three weeks and be strict. After that I'll put in a bunch of healthy options with carbs as well but still going to watch portions as well as what foods I eat. No more junk all the time.... hear that JP!!! :P Once in a while... just not more than one bad meal a week for me. My body has the ability to be skinny I just have to quit being lazy and also stuffing it.... and I must be in shape to be an EMT. How in the world will I get a stretcher up a flight of stairs in this kind of shape?

Plus, I'd like to start doing things like bike riding and rock climbing or something, but I can't do even the biking in my current shape.... soon though.... I will.

Here's a pic of breakfast:


All about proteins, dairy, veggies and liquids for me right now.... :)

-M

Oh and ....

I have this nifty thing where I could see where my readers are from and it's so neat to see so many and from different places (click picture to see in a readable size...):

Why you all read this boring thing of mine...I'll never know... but thanks! :D Now more of you just need to comment or click the little reaction boxes so I know you are reading ;)

and yep...

Now off to work... :S

May 17, 2010

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LOL bugging her until she gives it up :P

-M

May 14, 2010

Finally Going To Work!

I'm really happy and excited because I get to work today! Yay! The only think standing in my way right now? Is the crap-ass bloody clothes dryer down stairs.... Grrrrrr. It's the second time I've pumped money into it and so far my jeans and socks are still soaking wet. :((( Hot dry my ass.... the clothes are COLD...and wet... *sigh* Maybe I should waste another buck and switch them to the other one... knowing my luck that one will suck equally.

I decided to make a hearty little meal for myself since I won't eat at work tonight. I made raspberry balsamic chicken with veggies --- yum! Haven't made it in a very long time. Not the best pic as I was rushing because of work, but here she be:

Should be on tonight after work if anyone is around, probably around 1am-ish or a little after :)

-M

I Don't Normally Post About This....

...in this public blog, but it's bothering me, so I'm going to any how. I don't care what anyone thinks about this subject or what I have to say, my opinions are my opinions and have been for years so no one is going to come along now and change them for me. I've copped abuse for so many years about this particular person I'm a fan of, that as this individual would say when he copped so much... you just gotta have rhinoceros skin. Indeed. I'm just rambling about my take on it and how I feel on it. If people read it and agree that is fine, if they don't, that's fine too. That is exactly what makes this country what it is. The right/freedom to agree...or not to. It's weird to write much of anything about this in here because this is a blog for my family and well, like everywhere I suppose, there is a vast range in my family when it comes to opinions about this person, which is why most of the time I don't say much about my fandom. It's one thing to talk about Elton.... but it's just different when bringing up Michael. Being an MJ fan has always been difficult because he was used as a sort of verbal punching bag by the press, to the point where everyone believed what was said about him, no matter how stupid it was. Everyone just believes without doing any homework whatsoever. And people just can't be very eccentric in this country either.... Shame really as people are more interesting when they aren't exactly like everyone else. Anyways, on to what I wanted to say hey? ;)

Elvis's daughter, Lisa Marie, wrote a blog on her Myspace page, which she has only done twice since her ex-husband, Michael, passed. She's used it as a way to put her thoughts into words about her loss as well as let people know how she's feeling.

It might come as a surprise to some that she's been pretty well devastated over the death of Michael. I imagine it's probably a lot to do with the very intense time spent together, then her anger at him when they split up, then more anger after she tried to get him back again and of course that he died in a similar way to her father. She vary blatantly said on her blog that she holds herself responsible and it's the biggest mistake of her entire life that she didn't try harder to help Michael. That she had watched the exact same tragedy unfold again and was too selfish to stop it (which I think is being impossibly hard on herself...). She's also used her blog to try a bit and explain what they had together. She very eloquently described that they were two misfits who grew up in a misunderstood world who found a spark - and also understanding in one another. She looked past every rumor and tabloid story and got to know him in a way that very few people ever did. She earned something few have ever from Michael - his trust and his love. The guy had so much said about him, had so many take advantage and was probably so disably self conscious from vitiligo that it's probably amazing he ever trusted anyone so intimately. But based on what she has said as well as most biographers and many around him.... that is exactly what happened between them. She looked past all of it and saw that, guess what, there's a human being here.....

Within the last few days, Lisa took to her blog again, this time to tell of how she went to Forrest Lawn Cemetery to visit Michael (only a very short list of family approved people are allowed to actually go inside the building) in the Mausoleum and how there weren't very many things in his 'room' where his tomb is. She felt that strange and sad that it was so empty, because he always liked so many things around him and asked fans to help fill it back up. The most likely cause of this is they have 'clean out days' like they do at every cemetery, when they clean up all the items. They don't just leave dead flowers, balloons, notes, etc stay there forever. No cemetery that I've ever been to does. It's one of the hard realities you learn when you lose a few loved ones.... Anyhow, she shared that his favorite flower was the sunflower, that he'd said sunflowers made him happy and while they were together she was always putting them in their rooms while they traveled. She asked if fans were able to each send a sunflower...so that there would be a 'shower of sunflowers' around him.

I think it's a great idea. I think it's really wonderful that she wants to band the troops together for him like that. But, as seems to always happen, so quickly some fans have turned it around....

There's I'd say, maybe close to half of Michael's fans, who pretty much hate Lisa Marie with a passion. Many say it's because she made a few negative remarks after her and Michael split, but I think it's more than that. Honestly, when I went through my divorce, I'm sure I said so much worse! Actually, I know I did!! It's called being human and being angry and hurt after opening your heart to someone and going through a divorce! I think many of the fans that act this way are probably too young or immature to understand the dynamics of a real relationship of that magnitude. They all say they understand, but by their childish comments, they really don't. Otherwise they wouldn't be saying such immature things. They think they know it all about Lisa Marie and her relationship with Michael and are just so sure she was out to hurt him, do him wrong, that she's this vile evil bitch..... you get the idea....

They also say her expressions of grief now are unwarranted and only for attention. I absolutely disagree. If my ex husband were to die...even with all the crap I've said about him and things about him that still piss me off and make us argue even five years after our divorce... I'd be devastated... I honestly would probably collapse and just sob, I wouldn't know what to do. I'd be a total train wreck. (Ok if my ex reads this, try not to let your ego get too big, okay? lol) I'd try to think of things I could have done different and think it was my fault and blame myself over things that I had no control over because real life is real life and someone is dead and......... sound familiar? Yeah. It's called reality.

I think there are some fans, that need to take a breather. To step back and go live for awhile. I think they've become almost blinded and are just totally becoming crazy. I thought some were bad during the trial...but now some are so much worse. It's hard to go on my favorite MJ board now, because there's so much hate and anger and fighting.... I understand that is how some deal with this, and because it's not resolved yet (trial, etc.), and the unrelenting tabloids and press.... but so many have jumped on the 'bash everyone' wagon...they are like sheep (or maybe more like stinging hornets).... Michael would have hated to see fans slandering not only Lisa Marie, but his family and friends, some who were by his side for over 20 years (and knew him for real, not like fans).... Frankly he'd probably just shake his head.

The entire reason I'm writing this, is because I want to say that not all Michael Jackson fans are like this!! There is a percentage of fans that are just obsessed and crazy and mean and full of rage... this fan is NOT one of them. I've lived enough life on my own to understand that you can't judge people that way. I thought...no I know, that THAT is what MJ taught his fans. But some weren't really paying attention. Some didn't/don't try to learn the lessons...

I like Lisa Marie. I think she must be one very understanding and compassionate person to try so hard to crack the wall that Michael put up to protect himself from all the hurt everyone wanted to cause him. I hate that she is judged the same way he was and some who judge are his fans. I think that is just wrong. He found something he loved in her. He shared part of his life with her. She's not fan's personal punching bag for their uncontrolled anger over his death.

I hope with time that LMP comes to terms with her grief and has a wonderful life with her husband and kids and that MJ fans can finally leave her alone.

And just maybe I'll have to make something with a sunflower on it to send to California. I haven't sent anything yet, but now that I'm back in America, maybe I will create something. Lisa didn't have to say anything or tell what his favorite flower is, but she did and I'm thankful for it. The whole point, is she didn't HAVE to, but she wanted to share. I personally, LOVE when people who REALLY knew him, share. So the rest of us know that little bit more about what he was like.

Okay, my ramble is over.

-M

Lisa Marie's Blog: http://blogs.myspace.com/lisamariepresley

May 13, 2010

Travel Blog From Dutch Family

There is a Blogger account from the father of that little Dutch boy who survived the plane crash in Tripoli.... He has four blogs, the one from their trip from Africa and their trip to America are both really neat. I translated it fairly well through Google translator. It was eerie reading, very sad knowing how this family ended in tragedy, but at the same time it shows what a wonderful family this little boy had.... and it leaves a story to show others.

This is why I love to blog. You only have one story to share, why not share it? Your experience of life will never be exactly the same as anyone else's....and either will your thoughts. If something ever happens, it's something left behind for other's, including loved ones, to read.

Anyhow, here's his profile page, which lists his blogs (they are in Dutch): http://www.blogger.com/profile/02897087067377393611

-M

Vids :)

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^ The video above is of the clouds trying to make a funnel cloud above our balcony... it didn't quite work out though!


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^ This is a video of the countryside out here.... very boring video... good music though ;)

-M

Last Sick Day Today

I'm starting to feel a little bit better today. Finally. Not completely better but it's slowly getting there. After chatting with personnel on the phone I took a second sick day. If you are sick and you call in up to three days in a row, it counts only as one absence which, in cases like this, is a really nice thing they do. I could go to work tonight and run my butt off and end up not getting over my cold as fast or I could take the extra day and rest some more and feel even better tomorrow. What is the point of going in and like three hours later wheezing and hacking and having to come home, right? So this is a good thing. I feel massively guilty about it though, because there is already one person gone from our group this week :( I know I wouldn't want it to be me trying to compensate for two people gone, so in that respect it sucks. And I'm missing out on important training too :( I'm really looking forward to getting back to work. I like my job and the people I work with and it's been pretty boring sitting around here, I like being busy again...

I did run in and get my check. I was really happy about it but noticed an important issue once I was home..... there were no taxes taken out of my check! It wasn't a very big check (only three days) so I can make up for that by having a couple extra bucks pulled out... but the issue still is - why did that happen??? I hope they didn't get confused. I marked 'single' and "0" on exemptions just like I always have. "1" is what a single person normally claims but if you claim O exemptions they take the maximum allowed out for a single person. Hence why I've never had to pay in and always gotten really awesome tax returns.... I'm wondering if they thought I meant exempt? I hope not.... 'exempt' is what you write in on a later line.... Tomorrow I'll make sure I get there a half hour early and see if I can catch someone to address the issue.

After cashing my check we went and got some groceries. I'd kept saying it was my buy, that they are paying rent and all this other stuff so I wanted to buy some food for the house. And I sure did! I had made a list of things I wanted to have in here, especially because I'm used to eating a certain way now. I bought $140 some dollars in food/items. I have yet to check the receipt but we got jipped. There were specials going on that we didn't get the special price for so I wasn't thrilled.... Like it was supposed to be 2 for 5 on the Cheerios Multigrain.... but on my receipt it has $4.88 a piece... :( Next time I go in there I want to see if you need a store card. Jess doesn't think so but it probably won't hurt to ask just in case. In any case we loaded up on fruits and veggies (although being us we got veggies for salad and forgot lettuce...*sigh*) and I was stoked to find my hazelnut coffee creamer ----> :D Haven't had that in a long time!

I even found Worcestershire sauce but darnit.... couldn't find the mint sauce.... Bruce got me hooked on that one ;) I got a fair amount of hamburger meat (beef mince) and I broke it up into patties, wrapped them in plastic wrap and froze them. My dad used to do that all the time and it comes in handy.

I also found my cheese curds! Woot! I was on a mission in Australia to find them and couldn't get them anywhere.... but they had like six different ones to choose from at our store.

There was alot of cheeses there too, Jess and I said we'll have to explore it more later and maybe start doing the whole cheese and crackers thing like once every couple weeks, just to test a new cheese out.


And just for fun I got us both a little container of that dot ice cream the astronauts eat up on the shuttle. Jess had never tried it before and I was like.... ooooh it's so yummy.... so I got choco chip cookie dough flavor and she got strawberry cheesecake flavor.

Once we got everything we needed we went home. It was tiring just doing that shopping and then bringing it up the stairs, which sort of told me my body is still in the process of getting better. I hate that tiredness you get when you are sick :( Do a few things and you are exhausted....

Now that all is put away, I went through and got all the pics and vids off my memory cards, which was about 2 GB worth of stuff.... and I saved it to Jess's external hard drive for now. It was nice to clear that stuff off there! Yay more space for pics. I would have taken stuff off there sooner but I couldn't figure out where the heck my camera cord was..... Turns out Jess borrowed it because it also works to connect her MP3 player to the computer, go figure! :P

As I go through the pics I've taken and the vids, I'm going to sit here and put a few short vids together, one of the spinning-almost-a-funnel-cloud we had off the balcony here and a video showing the landscape while out on the highway that I promised I'd make for Tracey.


And also Jess and I have been talking more serious about starting an EJ site together. I've explored some sites so far, as we want it to be a free one for a while, and we've come up with one or two possibilities.... we would like to attempt to write our own HTML script for it, so we will learn a whole lot as well as creating. Should be very interesting! Once it's up and running, I'll let you know more about it.

-M

PS: Tracey do you have mustard like this? We call it spicy brown mustard... the ingredients are vinegar, water, mustard seed, salt and turmeric. The mustard seed is loosely ground up which gives it the speckled appearance.


and....

Berries.... Nom Nom Nom = Yum ;)

Anti-Viral Tissues And Interesting Meals.


So I got these nifty antiviral tissues today from Kleenex. I did a little reading up on them after buying and it turns out that they can indeed help cut down secondary cold infections in a household. Interesting. There is a middle layer in each tissue that is treated with a combination of citric acid and sodium lauryl sulphate which is known to disable some of the more common rhinoviruses and influenza.
It's too late for Jess, she's already gotten my cold and not far behind me in starting to get better. But maybe it will help keep the germies down so Zak doesn't get it too. Maybe. ;)

My dinner last night.... cheese and broccoli pasta which some chicken I cooked on the stove top with a good dose of garlic :)

And a very interesting meal concoction made by Jess, which she got from her mom.... She took a can of cooked, diced chicken and mixed it in a bowl with ranch dressing. Then she got some club crackers and was snacking away on it. Had to try out of curiosity.... it's actually quite tasty!

Despite controversy, homecoming is a magical time for teen sailor Jessica Watson


How frustrating.... I've been following Jessica Watson's adventure to sail around the globe unassisted since she departed Sydney. Now she has less than a day before she is home and she will not be recognized for the feat she has accomplished.

This is a really good article about it....
Click: Despite controversy, homecoming is a magical time for teen sailor Jessica Watson


I like that despite all of the controversy that she's proud of what she's accomplished and I agree with one person in the article that said, in this time of children being over protected and sitting around becoming obese, that at least this 16 pushed herself to do something difficult. Too right.

-M

PS: There is a link to her blog on the right hand side of mine, under 'blogs I read'.

May 12, 2010

Not Much To Post About

Still sick. Ready for the cold to go away. Had to call in today. Debated it in my head right up until I talked to a manager at work and he heard the way I was talking. He helped me confirm it was a good idea. It was weird because it's an automated system where you punch in your code and the store code and a code for why you won't be in, etc. Then it direct links you to a manager at your store to confirm. They give you a code number you have to recite to the manager you talk to afterwards, and it was humorous because I stopped mid sentence with a mucus laced croak (ewww i know it) and then stammered the rest of the way through it with my voice sort of working and rattling and going in and out. I have so much stuff built up in my sinuses and throat that it's hard to sleep. Twice that I can remember I woke up last night almost gasping for air, only because all the stuff had settled and once I cleared my throat and all it was decent again.

This is definitely one of the grossest colds I've had in a long time! Fingers crossed I feel decent tomorrow cuz unless I'm dying I am going in!

Not much else going on. JP is still sick as well :( So far Zak hasn't even so much as had a sneeze.... I want that guy's immune system!

-M

May 8, 2010

Work going well.

This job is totally going to get me into shape! That is what I wanted so I sure got it. I keep reminding myself to suck it up lol. It will get easier once I start to get stronger. While in the shower today I counted some 18 different bruises on my body, can ya believe it?? :P Most are small, all are on either my arms or my legs and the best one is a toss up between my left knee and the back of my left leg where my pallet load ran into me. Good times ;)

Love the job though, just love it :) And the people are great. I'll just be happier once I know where everything goes, etc. That just comes with doing it a lot. And indeed I will do it a lot of it too.... I talked to the lady last night who works on my schedule and she said that definately have the 40 hours a week even though I'm listed as part time...and she's working on jockying to get me into a full time position since I am not at uni and plan to stay longer term yay :D

My head cold is still raging along nicely... grrrrrrrrr.... I'm determined to go in to work every day I'm scheduled so I cart a lot of cough drops and tylenol with me. It will be nice when I have a bit more energy again once the cold goes away. The only real irritating part is the sore throat which is on fire..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I got the same kind of cold within the first month I was in Australia and yeppers now I have it again after coming home. Friggin body needs to learn how to adjust to new air without freaking out like this... :P

-M

May 6, 2010

Had A Good Night :)

First evening of training went well and I really like the job and the people. SO much to learn but I know I have to be patient ;)

Yesterday, before I went in for training, Jessica used some carpet shampoo stuff to clean the couch. It was rather amusing looking but actually worked pretty well!

And today I made something her mom likes to make but nobody but her likes.... well, until now cuz I love it... She calls it breaded tomatoes :D Basically you take a can of diced tomatoes and dump it in a pot. Then you break up a few pieces of bread and toss it in. Then you add a little sugar, salt & pepper. Then heat it up until it's really heated through. And that's it. :) It reminds me of dipping your grilled cheese into tomato soup... so yummy....

And yay for satellite service, the guy was here and installed it not long ago. Now we have tv too :)

-M

May 5, 2010

Good Days ;)

Orientation went really well. I'm not going to say too much about after what happened to me with Aurora....but it went really well. Everyone there seems to be pretty nice and all...and because it is a bigger company I will eventually get many of the same benefits that I had before. Also because it's a physical job I'm very excited...it means I will most likely lose weight. Last time I did a job this physical, it dropped off pretty quickly...

I'm not going to only depend on that though, as I do really need to get this fat butt into shape before starting any kind of EMT program anyhow. So Jess and I are going to start walking every morning pretty early. And only a short walk from here is a community center where they have a full gym!! So I'm definitely going to look into that! I couldn't believe it's just down the road :D They offer Yoga too which is something to think about since I need to do something for strength of both mind and body...especially core...and that would do it. So we'll see.

Because I won't have the benefits for a while I am going to just have to suck it up and pay out to get my teeth cleaned and new glasses. I need both SO badly.... I've had the same prescription on my glasses since sometime when Bill & I were together...It's so bad I'm not even sure I'd pass the eye test for my driving temps - WITH them on. And my teeth, well, yeah that is a whole other issue. It's not even the teeth that is the problem it's my gums. I know they say not to be the arm chair internet doc (or in this case dentist) but I'm pretty worried I've crossed from the minor gingivitis to the much more serious gum disease... if I don't go soon I won't have any gums, they've receded that far now :( The big toss is what to do first. Eyes? Gums? Eyes? Gums? If I do the eyes first then I can get my temps and start workin on driving... I don't know...

I have a very long list of things to start working on now that I have a job. I'd like to be able to get my own place after summer... we'll see. Depends on how much I get accomplished. Because it's a college town, rent is cheap. A one bedroom here is under 400 for one like what I had in Milwaukee. Cheaper ones are under 300 which are basically ones that aren't in complexes. So it definitely can be done.

Anyhow, that's all for now. Off to get a shirt for my new job and then go to work in a few hours. First training day.... woohooo..... :P

-M

May 3, 2010

Another Storm - Yes Another One :D

After talking again to my new employer today and arranging my orientation for tomorrow, we got ready and Jess & I went up to Iowa. We did laundry at her ma's and also went to get Jess's finally repaired cell phone. After we hung out at her folks for a bit and we had some blueberry bagels and strawberry cream cheese.... YUM!



On our way home after we saw yet another wonderful storm system.... How many is that now?! I love it!! The clouds looked absolutely amazing... as if someone had painted the sky with a brush... In reality I'm pretty sure it was rain and a few downdrafts from the storms... but it sure looked soft and as Tracey put it on FB.... wispy.... :)





To me it was just amazing and beautiful.

I Got The Job!!!!!

In my total impatience this morning at waiting for them to call me.... I yahoo'd the number and just called them. The lady in personnel that I talked to was like... 'well you jumped the gun didn't you' LOL. She was like.... 'yes you got the job, we are going to call you in a couple of hours to set up your date for orientation'.

Yay!!!!! I'm crawlin my way back!!!! Finally a long term job!!! :D

-M

May 2, 2010

Another Storm....


This one was great! Had very beautiful cloud formations and movements going on. For less than a minute, the clouds right by us started to spin, but then, like it didn't have enough gusto do more... they stopped. Was really neat to watch above my head :)



Loving the storms here!

-M

So Tired... But We Are Moved In :)

Today was a very long day but a good day. Jess's folks came down and between the five of us we hauled all of our possessions from Zak's garage into the vehicles (at least 5 trips using JP's dad's truck and something like 7 car trips back and forth?) . We are on the third floor so the steps....SUCKED! My knees are talking to me right now and they aren't saying anything very nice..... arg....

If there is one thing that sucks, it's having too much weight on you and then walking up and down three flights of stairs for like ten hours (I'm suspect of my knees anyhow since I used to do some repetitive tumbling in a basement....on cement....I'll need new knees by the time I'm 50....) woohoo the knees! :-S

But, most the stuff is in here now and it's starting to look like a real apartment ;)

I am very happy for them having their first place together... I just hope things work out and I only have to stay a few months at the most, just long enough to get the money together to get my own little place and get out of their way. I'm very grateful for their hospitality and help.

Here's the first sunset in the apartment:


It sure would be a great view for storms...since it's facing west..... :D

-M

May 1, 2010

Nice Day But Busy.....

Had a really good day today. I got up earlier than I thought I would, which was really good since there was still so much to do....

I packed up more stuff for Jess before she got to the apartment so we wouldn't have as much left to do. By the time she arrived I had her computer broken down for her and other stuff packed up. It's kind of awkward to pack up someone else's stuff because you don't know how they want it packed but after a little while I didn't care anymore, I just wanted to get it all ready to go.

We got a bunch of stuff in Jess's car and ended up making two trips over to Zak's garage to drop stuff off. His ma's garage is like the half way point with all our things. See everyone had to be out of Jess's current place by 5pm on the last day of April.... but move in day for the new place is on May 1st at like 11am. So.....

We are in limbo after 5pm.

Jess's dad showed up close to noon and the first thing we all were thinking was..... we need to eat :P The three of us + Jess's roommate Wendy decided to all jump into Jess's car and go to Burger King and have some lunch to power up for moving the big stuff. Once we got back we got to it and moved dressers and the bed and coffee table and the couch, etc. After Zak got off work he showed up as well to help, which was great when it came to the couches. It was a team effort all around.

We also had a big cleaning job to do as well. Once everyone had their things out we went through the whole place wiping walls, sweeping floors, washing out cabinets, etc. And then that was that. We had everything out of the apartment and unloaded it all into the garage. Then Jess, Zak & I stopped at Sonic for some yummy cold drinks to cool us off after all the hard work.

We had all decided on having a cookout over at Jess's folks, so we ordered two of those big family sized Tuscan pastas from Pizza Hut and took them with to add to the dinner. We picked up Wendy at her new place and she came as well. When we arrived, Jess's dad was already cooking chicken. He cooked it on an open fire, which is really yummy ;)

They also cooked steaks on that fire. And they made baked beans (Jess's mom used pork and beans and added ketchup and brown sugar to it), breaded tomatoes, home made coleslaw, the two pastas.... omg it was so good :) I don't know about anyone else, but I was absolutely STUFFED!



Afterward we all went outside, chatted, drank coffee and watched thunderstorms that were sort of passing by and not quite hitting us. We did get a tiny bit of small hail but that was about it. I got some neat pictures of cloud formations though :D





So now it's time for bed, which would have been a little weird as all three of us want to cram into the one bed at Zak's..... but turns out he's a total gentleman and sacrificed himself by letting Jess and I crash in his room and he's sleeping on a recliner.... he's gonna feel THAT tomorrow! But I'm sure grateful for the nice super soft bed and all these pillows :P

Night :)

-M